Sunday, September 16, 2012

Sunday Nostalgia

Sitting in church.
Droning of little-one coos, fidgeting, and adult sighs who feel the same boredom.
The speaker is talking about knowing "who we are" by "remembering".
Well, I've been doing a lot of remembering and it's making me hate myself.
Shouldn't the present make you who you are?
What you are right now is who you are.
Missing my old self doesn't do any good for 17 years, 4 months, and 5 days old me.


  1. oh, dear, sweet, ellie. i've always loved who you've been. it is so easy to focus on the negative and feel that way about yourself... but you definitely wouldn't be who you are NOW without that past. don't miss your old self, but be grateful for how far you've come! i'd like to think that my personal history is a part of who i am - but i am so much more than just a few random experiences over the years. i think what we really need to remember is where we were even before mortality. THAT is at the core of who we are now.


  2. I feel the exact way. I hate the person I used to be. I don't ever want to remember her. The past is the past and that's why is gone.

    Ellie, you're so great.